What can we learn from a young life beautifully lived, especially when that life is put to the ultimate test? What truths are meant to flourish long after any one individual stops walking this earth?


Nineteen is a book of profound and inspiring reflections based on a true story of Haydn Robarts.

In July 2019, Haydn started to experience headaches, blurred vision, and nausea. He was sent for a precautionary MRI, which revealed a 4cm-diameter tumor at the base of his brain. This tremendous shock kickstarted a remarkable journey into unchartered territory with no other options but to face forward and move one step at a time. It took a Himalayan effort, and Haydn gave the climb everything he had with the hope that conquering this disease would be akin to reaching a hard-earned summit.

After two brain surgeries, multiple rounds of chemotherapy and radiation, a clinical trial, and some periods of progress, Haydn passed away a week before his 20th birthday. While the ordeal was awful, Nineteen describes the journey as far from awful, rather as uplifting, nourishing, rewarding and even joyous. The book concludes that Haydn did indeed reach the summit, just not in the way anyone imagined.

Nineteen takes readers along Haydn’s path, sharing intimate family moments alongside universal lessons that crystallized for the author as he watched his teenage son, in awe and wonder, face his physical demise with grace, love and gratitude.

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“Live a life filled with joy and try to consciously consider how to bring joy to the lives of those around you as well.”


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